The Fashion is Thft (thepantywar) wrote,
The Fashion is Thft

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Yea, it's a public post.

I just gathered enough courage to talk to my Dad.
He seemed okay with the plan I told him.

Now it's all up to Erica and her car. If no car -- i'll have to wait. Who knows how long.

Registration for St. Pete Junior College starts April 22. School starts May 17.

It struck me that in four days, I will be moving out of my house...which is creepy, but also exhilirating. I guess looking back...last year even...I never would see myself graduating, getting my diploma, and moving away for college in less than a school year.

It all happened so fast, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Not to mention, living with the two people I care most about in this world right now.

Leaving the Keys was the best decision I've ever made in my life. Sure, I've been miserable here, without a car, and invisible -- but I've met so many new people and experienced so many new things in Fort Myers, Bradenton, St Pete, and South Miami. I've fallen in love and watched it shatter to pieces, and I'm watching another one grow right in front of me. I've met people who accepted me and all my flaws. I've done things that have caused me tremendous happiness -- more than I've ever felt in my life. I've learned more common sense and "real life" information (partially because I don't have my nose buried in an expired Macmillan textbook.)

I've learned to advise anyone who is not living up to their full potentiol happiness to leave in search of it...even if you're disappointing friends and family. Nothing compares to the smile you get from ditching school to spend a day picnicing with friends or quitting work to road trip across the state. I've learned more in these 6 months of not being in school than I have in the 6 years I can remember being in it.

Taking back your life isn't as cliche or impossible as it sounds.

I never thought of my leaving the Keys as "taking back my life" until recently.
Back then, it was a matter of independance and emancipation.
Today I realize I was attempting to regain authority over myself, and I succeeded.

I'd do it again and again if it felt necessary.

I'd just like to update everyone on my friends list of my current situation...and that I'm alive...and happy.

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